Thursday, December 10, 2009

i am so ready for...

family christmas and my favorite cousins!

my favorite uncle coming to town next week

going to the dome this saturday!!

playing the wii with heather again (it is horrible for our nerves, and throats since we yell so much)

getting games for my wii


Monday, October 26, 2009

i am going to miss...

baseball. it is going to be gone until april!! i know i can still watch the world series but both of those teams suck!!

going to class. it is going to be so weird when i have to actually teach little munchkins.

having time to read books.

i guess that is all.


Monday, October 12, 2009


my best friend (more than anything)
Casey Max and Butters McGee
making things
shopping for arts and crafts
$1 items
the fair and its glorious food
diet soda
so many things

Sunday, August 16, 2009

ready for...

i am ready for...

a trip to rocky in atlanta
one more baseball game at the ted
high school football season
october (so my days return to normal)
this student teaching thing to be over
the weekend (already)
that natzi movie as i call it (inglorious basterds)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

dont know what to do

i feel like i've lost one of the most important people in my life. they dont talk to me or even really try it seems. but maybe they never cared.. maybe i'm holding on to something that person no longer wants.

Monday, July 27, 2009


"i'm stuck in this fucking rut waiting on a seconhand pick-me-up"

hmmm. this seems to fit.

love list:
1. losing 6.8 pounds in three weeks
2. braves winning 2 out of 3
3. oltl
4. e.r.
5. 3oh!3

i'm glad that i am losing all this weight that has been piling up.
glad to see the braves are winning some games finally.
my favorite soap. good stories and i love the jess/brody thing.
watching the reruns on tnt. miss the show already.
favorite new band right now. loving tracks 5 and 7 on their c.d Want.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

baseball heals my soul

love list pt3
  1. Tim Lincecum
  2. Brian McCann
  3. Matt Diaz
  4. Chipper Jones
  5. Mike Gonzo

First off Tim Lincecum. The only non-brave on this list. He is just a beast! I love this guy, he has great pitching stuff and a ridiculously good change up that stumps the braves every time. Also he is a Cy Young award winner, how can you not love that. Next is the love of my life. I love Brian McCann more than anybody on this list. He is an amazing catcher and one of the best hitters on the Braves team. Whenever he is out, the team suffers. Hoping he makes it to the All-Star game this year.
Matt Diaz is also an awesome hitter and fielder on the Braves team. Wish they would play him more. He is a great outfielder and probably would have had a great '08 season if he hadn't messed up his knee.
Now Chipper is not always my favorite person but he does often live up to his reputation. He is a great hitter and fielder along with Brian and Matt. He has also been with the Braves for quite awhile and definitely deserves the leadership role for the team. He has an amazing memory for pitchers and pitches and definitely knows how to prepare for games and help his teammates warm up as well.
Ok and last is Gonzo. This man is also a beast. He is the best closer that the Braves have and he has some crazy stuff. I love his little rocking back and forth before a pitch. So glad he is back from the D.L.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Learned my lesson

i definitely learned what not to do saturday night. and so did h. she and i both felt horrible saturday and sunday.

love list pt2.
  1. tom collins
  2. white gold
  3. Casey Max
  4. sims
  5. CSI: Miami

very random list tonight. i definitely love tom collins in moderation. and when p's dad makes it for me. i dislike gold because t doesnt go well with my skin tone so white gold works better. Casey Max is my wonderful puppy. I love him to death and he will appear on love lists again i am sure. the sims is an awesome video game that i play way to often. i cant wait for sims3 to come out. and lastly is CSI: Miami. Horatio is hilarious!

thats all for now....

Friday, May 22, 2009

things that i love

i'm going to try to write about 5 things i love in each post.

  1. popcorn with lots of butter and cheese stuff at the movies.
  2. icee's
  3. potato soup
  4. s'mores
  5. crunchy peanut butter

this one is obviously about food.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

sleepless nights

i wish for just one night of sleep.
peaceful sleep.
sleep so that when i wake up i'm tired still
sleep that could heal all aches and wounds.
if only.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

liking you and hating you is all i ever do

i want you
and you know that
but all you do is complain
about how you want someone
but you cant find anyone
and that you are so busy

well i am here
i've been here
and i want to help you
i think you need help
but you wont accept it

i care about you.
for some god forsaken reason
and it hurts

Sunday, March 29, 2009

is sick... and tired

i'm sick..
literally. thank you pollen.
but also figuratively...
of you and you bullsh**
and of you and your drama.

i'm tired.
literally. thank you school.
but also mentally.
i worry and stress so much.
its exhausting.
i just want to sleep for a few weeks.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Warm Mondays

Its 80 degrees outside.
how nice is that?
very nice.
I love being able to open my window and sit on my bed and relax.
its so nice outside and i hope it lasts all week.
or alteast til thursday.
maybe it'll be warm enough for the beach.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Lovely Sundays

it snowed today.
how crazy is that?
it is still snowing outside.
and i love it.
i cant wait for renee to come over with grant
so we can all play in the snow.

thank goodness for sundays.
thank goodness their is no school tomorrow (hopefully)
thank goodness i am over you

Monday, February 23, 2009



To determine your Literacy Score, use the following rules:
4 points – if you read the book listed
5 points – if you read the book listed and it wasn’t a school assignment
3 points—if you read a different book by the author than the one listed

1. Aesop’s Fables -
2. Things Fall Apart - Chinua Achebe -
3. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott - 5
4. Winesburg, Ohio – Sherwood Anderson -
5. Foundation – Isaac Asimov -
6. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen - 5
7. Go Tell It on the Mountain – James Baldwin -
8. The Black Sheep - Honore De Balzac -
9. The Wizard of Oz – L. Frank Baum -
10. The Adventures of Augie March – Saul Bellow -
11. The Mandarins - Simone de Beauvoir -
12. Beowulf - 4
13. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte -
14. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte - 5
15. Fahrenheit 451 – Ray Bradbury -
16. The Good Earth – Pearl S. Buck -
17. Pilgrim's Progress -- John Bunyan -4
18. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett -
19. Tarzan of the Apes – Edgar Rice Burroughs -
20. Breakfast at Tiffany’s – Truman Capote -
21. The Spy Who Came in from the Cold – John le Carre -
22. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll -5
23. My Antonia – Willa Cather -4
24. Don Quixote – Miguel de Cervantes -
25. The Big Sleep – Raymond Chandler -
26. The Canterbury Tales – Geoffrey Chaucer - 4
27. The Awakening – Kate Chopin -4
28. Murder on the Orient Express – Agatha Christie -3
29. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins -
30. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad - 4
31. The Last of the Mohicans – James Fenimore Cooper -
32. The Red Badge of Courage – Stephen Crane -
33. The Enormous Room – e. e. cummings -
34. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl - 5
35. Divine Comedy - Dante - 4
36. Robinson Crusoe – Daniel Defoe -
37. The Man in the High Castle – Philip K. Dick -
38. Tale of Two Cities - Charles Dickens -
39. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky -
40. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle -
41. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier -
42. The Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas -
43. Camille – Alexander Dumas fils. -
44. Middlemarch - George Eliot -
45. Invisible Man – Ralph Ellison -
46. The Sound and the Fury – William Faulkner - 3
47. Tom Jones - Henry Fielding -
48. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald - 4
49. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert - 5
50. The Good Soldier – Ford Maddox Ford -
51. A Passage to India – E.M. Forster -
52. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons -
53. Lord of the Flies - William Golding - 4
54. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame -
55. Riders of the Purple Range – Zane Grey -
56. She – H. Rider Haggard -
57. The Glass Key – Dashiell Hammett -
58. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy -
59. The Scarlet Letter - Nathaniel Hawthorne - 4
60. Catch-22 - Joseph Heller -
61. The Old Man and the Sea – Ernest Hemmingway -
62. Cabbages and Kings - O. Henry -
63. The Odyssey – Homer - 4
64. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo -
65. Their Eyes Were Watching God – Zora Neale Hurston -
66. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley - 4
67. Daisy Miller – Henry James -
68. From Here to Eternity – James Jones -
69. Ulysses - James Joyce -
70. The Metamorphosis – Franz Kafka - 4
71. Just So Stories – Rudyard Kipling -
72. Lady Chatterley’s Lover – D.H. Lawrence -3
73. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee - 5
74. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis -
75. Babbitt – Sinclair Lewis -
76. The Call of the Wild – Jack London - 4
77. The Naked and the Dead – Norman Mailer -
78. The Magic Mountain – Thomas Mann -
79. Of Human Bondage - W. Somerset Maugham -
80. Selected Short Stories - Guy de Maupassant -
81. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
82. The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter - Carson McCullers - 5
83. Moby Dick - Herman Melville -
84. Tales of the South Pacific - James Michener -
85. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne -
86. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell -
87. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery -
88. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov -
89. A Good Man Is Hard to Find – Flannery O’Connor - 4
90. The Scarlet Pimpernel – Baroness Orczy -
91. Animal Farm - George Orwell - 4
92. Selected Short Stories - Edgar Allan Poe - 5
93. Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand -
94. Clarissa - Samuel Richardson -
95. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger - 5
96. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery -
97. Ivanhoe – Sir Walter Scott -
98. Frankenstein – Mary Shelley - 4
99. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute -
100. The Jungle – Upton Sinclair -
101. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn – Betty Smith -
102. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck - 3
103. Treasure Island – Robert Louis Stevenson -
104. Dracula - Bram Stoker -
105. Uncle Tom’s Cabin – Harriet Beecher Stowe -
106. Gulliver’s Travels – Jonathan Swift -
107. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray -
108. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy -
109. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien - 5
110. Lady Anna - Anthony Trollope -
111. Huckleberry Finn – Mark Twain - 3
112. Rabbit, Run – John Updike -
113. The City and the Pillar – Gore Vidal -
114. All the King’s Men - Robert Penn Warren -
115. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh -
116. The Time Machine – H.G. Wells - 4
117. The House of Mirth – Edith Wharton -
118. Charlotte’s Web - EB White -
119. The Picture of Dorian Gray – Oscar Wilde - 4
120. Little House on the Prairie – Laura Ingalls Wilder -
121. To the Lighthouse – Virginia Woolf -
122. Germinal - Emile Zola -
123. (bonus) The Glass Menagerie - Tennessee Williams - 4
124. (bonus) A Thousand Splendid Suns - Khaled Hosseini -
125. (bonus) Number the Stars - Lois Lowry - 3

149 is my score. I want to read everything on this list.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Writing Workshop

I may have picked the worst possible career to get into at this time. Today at Bonaire they had a staff meeting after school and talked about budget cuts. Its a little scary to think that I may not be able to get a job when I graduate. Apparently this year there are only 52 people retiring compared to the normal 200. So basically they are short on spots. And also they need to cut 4.5 million dollars from the county's budget and since 89% of the budget is personnel, there is going to be a lot of relocating people. There have been tons of rumors about job cutting and such. The board of Houston county's goal is to not cut jobs but to just move people around. Which means even less jobs available for newer teachers.
Another thing I want to vent about is classes. I absolutely hate my classes. Tuesdays and Thursdays are the bane of my existence. Plus the amount of work that is being placed upon us is ridonkulous. The assignments do not better me as a future teacher. They are not helping to learn more ways to help and teach kids. They are busy work.
Ok next thing on my list is gym. I am so glad that I get to go to the gym. Its actually something I look forward to. I wish I could go more often.
So I guess life is going ok. A bit too stressful and lonely for my taste but still I guess it could be worse. I just wish I had someone to share it with.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

ready to begin..

i'm ready to start something new. and i'm tired of the constant sameness. my days are the same. everyday, the same schedule. i want something new. someone new. i think i want you.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

This is Brian McCann. He is a sexy beast.
This is Brian McCann signing my shirt. Isn't he a sweetie?

Brian and Blaine Boyer came to Macon a week or so ago. So I went up there and got them to sign stuff. They were both pretty awesome. And did I mention hot?

I'm ready for baseball season. I love baseball. And I love going to games. They are so much fun and its just like a mini vacation. I can't wait for the season to start in a few months. And I plan to go to as many games as possible.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Can't Stop...

...thinking about you
...wanting you
...needing you
...hating you
...missing you

everything is about you.
and i hate it.
but i want this so bad.
i want to atleast try.
and you wont give me that chance.
but i cant give up.
one night i will get drunk and end up telling you everything.
just wait and see.

All alone in my room, think of you at a rate that is truly alarming
I keep looping my memories of you in my head
I pretend that you want me
What I would give to have you look in my direction
And I'd give my life to somehow attract your attention
-Maroon 5

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Two Birds Stoned at Once

my feelings crawl the walls.
they crawl the walls, and finally fall.
they finally empires and old loves
.….and we’re all whores, some of us just get paid.

Quit Lollygagging

I bite my tongue another perfect time
I’d do anything to make her happy,
Even if it means my being miserable as long as she’s loving life

I will be able to sleep at night, with a smile upon her face (2x)

The thought of her smile and not being there
My inner feelings would be shattered
A piece of glass punctured in my heart
I’m bleeding from the inside

I will be able to sleep at night, with a smile upon her face (2x)
As long as she’s perfectly fine (2x)
And someday she will be mine

I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face
As long as she’s perfectly fine
I hope she’s perfectly fine
And someday she will be mine

"Lindsay Quit Lollygagging"

i dont know what to believe anymore. hope is almost gone.